Showing posts with label aging. Show all posts
Showing posts with label aging. Show all posts

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Puppy Orientation



There Will Be Stairs

A leash, a bowl, at least one walk a day
two squares and all the flotsam and jetsam
you can cadge short of larceny from the
plate.  The park is close, an open maw that

must be appeased, sere indifferent god with
this strange affinity for tennis balls  
offered up in prayerful overhand arcs.  
Let’s hope you’re no fetching unbeliever,  

the rational type thwarting every gift  
sent aloft, dropping Nietzsche and endless 
filthy Spauldings at my feet.  You can count
on rides in the car and walks in the woods

year round, red bandana in winter, a
dash of color on the canvas of a
painting we’ll never finish, returning
again and again to a stark landscape

vibrating with ranks of vertical tines
issuing from ribbons of blue shadow
unfurled toward dusk, a field of white festooned
with your bold smudges of heedless yellow.

There will be stairs to lever and convey
us up and down, in and out, a benign
case that will metastasize as we age
along parallel tracks, dwarfing us one

unexpected evening in spring, coffee
programmed, door closed on one final circuit
of the backyard, a series of slow drips
and drabs to remind you why you went out

in the first place, a familiar artless
dance among dogs and men of a certain
mien.  We’ll stand wordless, moon waning through
an upper pane, day spent, our long shared trail

behind us, a moment’s hesitation
at the bottom of the looming well then
up to bed where I’ll lay awake until
the sound of your breathing falls in step with

the warm night breeze that rustles the curtains
and seeds our dreams, here to beckon us out
for a walk off the leash through woods stirring  
green, last cones of snow bidding us farewell. 

  







Saturday, January 21, 2012

Drawing 101


Drawing 101

I wonder if I kept that
self-portrait from my
first college art class, contour

in pencil, peering
into a mirror, on sketch
bond.  Dave Barr, he would

have to be, what, in
his seventies by now, my
first acquaintance with

a practicing artist, one
with a studio
and ideas that woke him up

mornings.  The twist, I
recall, was to render ones’
face as it might look

forty years in the future,
warts and all, as they
say.  As if by magic I’ve

arrived, suddenly,
at my destination, the
one I predicted  

using only line to map
sagging jowls, face etched
and a nose grown to epic

proportion.  At least
that’s how I remember it,
a masterpiece of

draftsmanship that captured the
soul of its subject,
a man rendered in short hand,

his gaze bewildered
when I was going for a
bemused detachment.   



Saturday, December 24, 2011

Map


Map

Skin is a road map leading
backward to the beginning.
Every turn, fork and road
side attraction carefully creased
and pleated, trace of a journey
deliberate only in hindsight.
Ruddy record of unexpected
tragedy and chance grace.


December 24, 2011


Saturday, December 10, 2011

poem


Morning Huddle


Before we start another busy day of
osmosis, transmissions, conversions and
moments of rapt incredulity might it
not be prudent to review our mission
statement, essential document bearing one
simple imperative, unamended
since our inception? So elemental, so
humble, prone to ginning up when we blazed
with righteous indignation and less noble
appetites, good, again, to recite it
in unison. I won't give my speech about
equality, we all know better. The
heart, four chamber rhythm section with a no-
break clause and skewed genetic pedigree,
the whole operation depends on you, you
wonderous metaphor for crazy love.
Pancreas, spleen, sundry schincters, lungs, glands, teeth,
kudos, but lets be honest, for you it's
just a job, if not this, then barista at
Starbucks, greeter at Walmart or direct
sales. A moment of silence now for our hip
and her replacement, bearing up, I trust
under the wear and tear. I'll wrap this up, the
fingers are drumming, feet are tapping, oh
and prostate? My office in ten. I don't care
about numbers or units or climbing
graphs. If my feet hit the floor in the morning
everyone gets a vacation in Spain.


Thursday, December 8, 2011

poem

Don't I Know You?

If you resided in my memory at all you must
have been squatting in one of the abandoned
store fronts on the two lane running straight as
a nail past the defunct rail yard parceled into
lots never sold, survey flags paeons to dreams of
manufactured housing. I apologize for relegating
you to the outskirts of town, but property here is
dear, boundaries fixed, all the prime locations gone
to family and friends and enemies and Lacy Webb
from fourth grade and Jerry from my first job who
sprinkled pot into the wedding food we
made. That, and I've begun to notice whole
neighborhoods razed, scraped clean, returned
to meadow, only birdsong and shallow cellar craters
to the horizon. You sprang fully formed, swiveled
on your bar stool, sly trick of synaptic algorithms,
like the misfired launch of an ancient Sputnik
transmitting a Good n' Plenty jingle into my
brain, taut and sweating with the effort of reading
E.O. Wilson. You entertained me with an impromptu
before and after, the former hazy, the latter frightening
with your hunched back, eyes like odd and even dice and
your mouth slowly kneading words into doughy vowels.
Your town is populated by ghosts. We shook hands,
said goodbye and you returned to your haunted stool.

December 8, 2011

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Haiku

Walking

Marks our trips' first step,
bows to new, fast modes. Quaint march
spurs us toward the end.

December 7, 2011

Thursday, December 1, 2011

poem

Figure Forty


One second, the time it takes
to inhale and exhale a breath,
held for a beat then released.
Not the breath of a lover

or worried mother
breathing in fractions of a second,
held for one long moment
at the touch of fingers tips

or a ringing phone, released
with a cry in the night.
60 an hour, let’s say, breath
upon breath upon breath beginning with

that first one exhaled with a scream,
an eternity passing before the next;
enough drama for one day.
I’ve done the math. 86,400 a day,

sun up to sun down around
the clock, long days drifting on
currents of breath, lazy eddies spinning
off here and there, galaxies receding

away only to bob to the surface down
stream, a Doppler trick of memory.
Days on end approaching like the
mailman taking time to squint at a

number or chat with the codger
at the end of the block. Or like a
tracked fastball thrown in a late inning,
stitching registered only

after you hear the smack of the
ball in the glove, only after the
thought: full count.
Have I got my figures right?

3650 days to a decade, a
calculation done in the head, a
quick tap to wedge a zero into place at
the end of a year of days, time
pressed between bookends, ten thin
texts stand at attention, spines out,
proclaiming eras; “The Sixties”, Disco,
Reagan, Me. Abandoned station platforms

viewed through frosted glass, receding
to pinpoints of light that blink off
finally, forgotten in the steady snare
beat keeping time on rails that drift

toward each other, bent on collision
far up the track. Check my work, I’ve
never been good at math: 14,600 days
is a long time to wander in the desert
looking for the Promised Land. Better
use the bathroom before setting
out. Now for some multiplication:
350,000 hours or 21,024,000

minutes; I don’t trust the calculator
any farther than I can throw it. Let’s
get back on firmer ground; seconds
and breathing. One second, the time

it takes to inhale and exhale a
breath, held for a beat then
released. A lovers breath promising
an era of seconds, sixty every

minute, in lost time on a slow
mail train to the Promised Land,
bent on collision again and
again far up the track.




Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Poem

Autumn Tale


Summer's gone
stow the screens, tarp the chairs, try to recall
the joke she
told by the fire near the lake under
a low moon,
was the dog still here, were the kids gone yet?
So long to
late night swims dipped to the neck in black ink
peppered with
starlight that rode the ripples in winking
cadence while
our hands moved like unseen fish brushing by.
Unnoticed,
autumn settled softly, rounded edges,
hooded eyes,
sifted in, buried us up to the neck,
warm, amazed
that the endless adventure was only
a tale told
by a fire, near a lake, ending, sweet.

November 18, 2011